Vision
“To work until I will no longer have to introduce myself.”
I want to prove something that I just don’t live but I EXIST! As an ordinary person, in existence of 25 years I’ve been through a lot. Life throws so many problems to solved, difficult situations to handle where being STRONG is the only choice to have. Experiences thought me so well; indeed MATURITY has everything to do with the acceptance of not knowing. It is the acceptance of our responsibilities. The acceptance of what consequences of the decision we made in the past. For I, experiences matures me. Despite of the life I have, there may be a time that I was so down but never did in my wildest dream to give up.
At this moment, I am motivated enough to get my goal for I know what I started for. For what I know, why I did this. I don’t care what people say as long as God knows everything what I’m doing. It’s more than enough for me.
Failure encourages me to be someone I wanted to be. Instead of having failures, I never did try as pessimist as others if they commit mistakes and failed, in my part I used it as a motivation. Yes, I will not chase success, I’ll let success chase me. In order to have that success, DETERMINATION is a must. Mind setting guides me of what I wanted to be. Hopefully, someday! In my own little way I won’t stop working until I will no longer have to introduce myself.
Mission
“I will enhance my self-worth, broaden my knowledge & skills and live to serve my talents as , an individual, a blogger, an optimist, an artist, and independent businesswoman. I live to inspire people especially those who I interact with.”
My mission is to give what I know, what I’ve been through for giving is what I do best and I can learn to do better and to guide those people not to experience what I had.
As a STUDENT, I should finish this course I’m taking. Having this course is not just compliance to me but it is in my heart. To prove, I am a young entrepreneur while studying, I am practicing. I do business. Business is where my heart is.
As an INDIVIDUAL, I am so grateful to have my FAMILY for they are always there when I need them the most. I may not that showy enough to tell my parents how thankful I am to have them but really I am blessed. As a sibling, I am so lucky to have a sister who is very thoughtful and could understand me without saying any word, I love you sis June for everything you have done for me and to Dylan, to my elder sister Thank you for the companionship whenever I am down and to my brother Thank you for always there when I call your name and just be with you with no reasons, we may not that close but I am trying.. I love you..
As an INDIVIDUAL, I am so grateful to have my FAMILY for they are always there when I need them the most. I may not that showy enough to tell my parents how thankful I am to have them but really I am blessed. As a sibling, I am so lucky to have a sister who is very thoughtful and could understand me without saying any word, I love you sis June for everything you have done for me and to Dylan, to my elder sister Thank you for the companionship whenever I am down and to my brother Thank you for always there when I call your name and just be with you with no reasons, we may not that close but I am trying.. I love you..
As a LOVER, nothing is perfect in relationship. Yes, I am married and I am a believer of God. God knows how much effort I put just to work things out. I really don’t just give up easily for I know it is just challenges to have a stronger faith, trust and respect. At some point you will realize that you’ve done so much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone and walk away. It’s not that it’s giving up and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line between determinations from desperation. For what is truly yours will eventually be yours and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be. And so, GIVING HIM UP is the only way to save myself. Life is too short to be miserable. Somehow I wanna be happy. I am okay now and as a person comfort from anyone won’t heal me, TIME does. Eventually TIME did heal me for my heart is full of love and there’s no room for angry and forgiveness always exist.
As a SINGLE MOTHER, I am a mom of a very special baby who was diagnosed through MRI to have this rare condition of a child called SEPTO-OPTIC DYSPLASIA. She also has slight of hydrocephalus luckily it is inactive. It is very hard to raise a normal child alone, how much more to raise an extra-ordinary baby who has condition. Dylan can’t see, can’t walk, can’t even get up on her own, and can’t eat alone. What will her going to do if I’m not around? A crazy mom like me will live forever just for her. I may ask why but never did come to my mind to have regrets, to get angry but I heartily accept what God gave me.
Dylan is getting bigger now and also her consumptions increases, her maintenance medicine is costly and she had semi-annual check-up from his pedia neuro-surgeon. Imagine what will you gonna do If u were me? Sad reality, Ugly truth? IT IS NOT EASY. People may see me so happy, joyous smiling person but I am strong enough to pretend that I am okay but deeply I am bleeding. Reality Bites, sometimes its okay not to be okay. I want you to know that despite of being single mom I am so blessed to have Dylan in my life. She changes me a lot to become a better person, she let it out all the best things in me, it was her made myself unlock my skills and abilities that I thought I don’t have. I am so blessed. Despite of her disorder I'm proud to say that she is HEALTHY, HAPPY, BRAVE and very STRONG BABY. And she is NOT one of those "HARD-TO-HANDLE" babies. I am so blessed. I am so lucky and happy to have a daughter like her. I so love her so much. Since then she was my strength, my inspiration, my motivation and all that I do is all for her. I was born to live for her. A MISSION where I accepted from the moment I heard her first cry.
As an ARTIST, is a part of my business I make give-aways, souvenirs, lay-out invitations and sometimes organized a party. I help those people who are in need in decorating, ask advices in designing. I help what they wanted to happen in their special occasions. (Of course I’m just a rookie stylist not that so much veteran).
As an OPTIMIST, not everyone has a positive way of thinking. I always think both sides, being optimist saves us from being judgemental. Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence. For somehow in my life I always have pain, sufferings, heartaches with me even if I love how I know what love is, it’s still don’t work, Instead of hating who done it to me, my love is greater than the hurt they’ve caused. Instead of cursing them, I think so deep and tried to understand them why they did it. And eventually forgive them for they don’t know how it feels to be hurt. As an optimist person, it was proven I enlighten the minds of those pre-occupied ones. And let them realized how they are still blessed.
As a BLOGGER, despite of failures, never been a bitter person, I always think that problems are not forever. I became an inspiration for others, to the point that I could cry because of their admiration & appreciation. I am grateful. I do blog because it is my outlet when I don’t have anyone to talk. I do blog for myself as to remind me that in every scar in my heart I could still manage to be okay afterwards. I do not blog to empress what I’ve made but I blog for what I feel, what’s in my heart and in my mind.
As a BUSINESSWOMAN, I just want my customers to be satisfy of what I offer. As a craft-designer I am willing to make whatever they will request and I will give my utmost sincerity in making those crafts. As for myself it is NOT just business it is my PASSION. Creating designs, making new ideas in the world of arts is EVERYTHING.
For I am so UNDERSTANDING somehow, someday, I hope someone will understands me, accept me, loved me the way I wanted to be and be afraid of losing me. I just wanted to be cared, loved and feel that I am important.
